Contemplation: Lightscape, Tyrrhenian Sea from Amalfi Coast, Italy, 2017

I am a diarist. As a girl growing up in England I remember carefully writing in these books with my fountain pen. Now my dusty stacks of diaries hold my stories. With these diaries in mind and the intention to share the stories that lie within my images, I have decided to start writing contemplations to accompany some of my work. Please find below the first one.

What is it about dawn that is so compelling? The silence and soft light are filled with an almost sacred promise. I think most clearly when the day has not yet arrived. 

I grabbed my camera and headed out, knowing that the hazy blue Italian light was already slipping away. Once I set up, I couldn’t quite believe the scene in front of me, the washes of deep blue, the hint of gold and sparkle on the horizon. I was reminded of a favorite painting by Whistler, his “Blue and Silver: Battersea Reach.” I know the painting well. It is tucked in the northeast corner of the Yellow Gallery of the Isabella Stewart Gardner Museum, in Boston, my hometown. Whistler didn’t want to part with the painting; Mrs. Gardner had to convince him to sell it to her. They both recognized the treasure he had created. It has interested me that such a master work is displayed in a corner of the gallery, not in a central spotlight. Gardner curated the spaces herself with great intention, and according to her will, the Museum’s permanent exhibitions were never to be altered. So the painting still hangs in the corner. Maybe she wanted her visitors to work a little harder to find it, to step to the edge of the gallery in order to view it. 

I like that it is set aside; the corner feels more intimate, and I often linger in front of it. I’ve loved the wash of thinned blue paint across the canvas. Whistler, less interested in the subject matter than in evoking a feeling with his tonal work, intended to create a harmony of color. He hints at the distinctions between sky and water, the darkness allowing the light from the tower in the distance to glimmer. He painted his first nocturne in 1871, after returning on a steamer to Westminster with his mother at dusk. Upon seeing the crude realities of London in daytime light transform into soft shapes and color, he rushed to his studio and began painting from memory. The pollution, crime, and poverty made for a hard city, but at night the harsh details faded, and the artist found atmospheric inspiration. Whistler expressed that he wanted his paintings to be like “breath on glass.” 

I first saw Whistler’s nocturnes when studying art history in college. I was drawn to these calming scenes. Originally, I’d planned to study studio art, but promptly intimidated by the daunting process of critique in the studio, I retreated to the dark classrooms of the Art History department. With paintings projected on the front wall, my anxious mind quieted. Whistler’s nocturnes were particularly meditative and peaceful. It took many years for me to find the confidence to create my own work. Not until after I became a mother did I pick up my camera, when I felt safe with only family and friends casting a critical gaze on my photography. Still, those years studying art history informed my work. Whistler was looking for subdued abstraction in his scenes and it was this aspect of his paintings that has always drawn me in. 

I remember that early Italian morning clearly. I was trying to absorb how I was feeling and every detail I was seeing, already careful with the memory of it all. I recognized the scene before me as an enactment of Whistler’s painting, unfolding just for me. My years of study and time in the Yellow Gallery propelled me  outside to the balcony, where I balanced my camera on the ironwork, a makeshift tripod.

I can see again a small boat head out in the harbor and then stop at another boat. The men unload crates from one boat to the other, and the smaller boat heads back to land. In the distance, a ferry – or is it a cruise ship? – moves gracefully across my deep blue scene. The light from the ship brings sparkle to the bands of blue, a distant glimmer of red and gold light. Now the freshly loaded boat heads out to sea. Even now, remembering, I wonder: what is their story? Would these men look up and see the beauty they were participants in? With my camera stable on the metal edge, I capture what I see. To me, a nocturne signifies a quiet moment when the world softens just a little. It is this that I want to share. The moment takes on the nature of the sublime as the light of dawn emerges with promise for me. Instead of studying the scene, I am active within it. 


Sources:

Richard Dorment and Margaret F. MacDonald, James McNeill Whistler, exhibition catalogue, Tate Gallery, London 1994

Tate.org.uk

Eye of the Beholder, edited by Alan Chong et al. (Boston: ISGM and Beacon Press, 2003)